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Custody taken
(written about my daughter and me)
My daughter, I love you
With all of my heart
It's very confusing
To explain why we're apart
You may call me selfish
You may hate me inside
I couldn't handle the respnsibility
But honestly I tried
Watching you sleep in yoour crib
Seeing so much of me in you
What was I thinking I could raise a child
I'm only a child too
I have to do the right thing
Know when to throw in the towel
I'll always love you, you know
And I'll be there for you in anyway i can
One day I know you'll understand
Why I did what I had to do
And when that day comes
Just hold me tight and whisper
"Mommy, I love you"
copyright 1993
To friends and Family
( a very chilling poem..I still get goosbumps everytime I read it)
I'm sitting in front of my mirror
Blank faced and wondering why
A girl ike me who had everything
Only wants to die
Rich beyond my wildest dreams
The envy of all my peers
Oh god I'm drowning
Drowning in my tears
I'm talking out the handgun
It's beauty catches my breath
It looks so harmless
For something that will cause my death
Life will go on without me
Noone will really care
Mom you just walked by my room
Should I pull the trigger now?
No, I wouldnt dare
I'm watching you get in your car
A tear falling from my eye
I try to memorize you the way you look now
Under my breath I bid you goodbye
AS I hold the gun to my head
I look in the mirror one last time
I love you friends and family
But I.............
copyright 1993
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